New Years. 2011 was a roller coaster ride. Not only for myself, but oddly for everyone around me. Many friends went through life-shifting events. I thought it was quite strange that so many people had to make decisions that weren’t the typical blase´, “what should I do?” type scenarios, but instead were dealing with hold on tight, holy shit, oh my gosh, WTF, or “I don’t know what to do” type situations.
I remember the end of 2010 well. Sitting with a group of friends, we were all wondering what would 2011 bring. There were ideas floating around. Things to be expanded upon. New projects being brought to the table, old projects that would finally take off. Stagnant and dormant would idle and then take off in 2011. 2011 seemed like many possibilities to us. Instead it turned into a hair-raising, knuckle-biting year.
As I sit here on the first day of 2012 with my shoulder angels, I’m in between feelings of positivity on one side and what does it all mean on the other. I even went as far as finding out where the idea of resolutions began. Master Google said it began with the Babylonians. In my weird mood this helps justify my pondering about 2012 as opposed to me putting energy into another commercial, mass media, establishment movement that we brainwashed Americans are supposed to buy into.
Today I decided to give Facebook a visit to see what it’s been up to. While weeding through the photoshopped articles and lives that we all love to follow I came upon something that whispered to how I was feeling. A friend posted a simple, but resounding New Year’s Resolution:
Thinking that my New Years resolution will be to attempt to let go of expectations, take things as they come and enjoy life at face value. I’ve only kept one resolution I ever made on New Years: to floss every day.
Ditto. I’ll fold that into my resolution-me. Yup, that’s it. Me. I prefer not to create a laundry list of external things that I must do. I’ve been there and done that. A lot of times that laundry list inadvertently created benefits and opportunities for others, but left me just kind of… I’ve gotten that list confused, and sometimes put others in front of myself in a way that in the end didn’t benefit either party involved. If I only think of me this year, and what’s best for me I believe I’ll be able to stay focused. If it doesn’t enlighten me, if it doesn’t provide personal or spiritual growth, if it doesn’t enhance my career, if it doesn’t deepen a relationship, if it doesn’t make me happy or give me peace, then it doesn’t become a part of what I put my energy into. This, I believe will allow me to accomplish any goal I set my eye towards. I’ll let that happy feeling and my inner peace guide me in meeting my expectations.
You know I really do understand the flight attendant’s instructions on emergency preparedness. Put the oxygen mask on myself first and then I’ll be capable of assisting others.
Whether your list of New Year’s Resolutions is long, or short my wish is that everyone will be given the opportunity to make all their desires become a reality.
Thank you 2011 for setting me up for 2012. I think I’m starting to get it.


